Fail!!!

Who knew not eating out was nearly impossible? WELP! I didn't even make it a week. SO the new "thing" is only choosing healthier non-drive thru meals.


Blech. Fail. eh.

Sometimes

you you just feel like you are being punished. I always wonder why?

Four hour nap.

Against my will my immune system has once again crashed. I have some sort of cold/maybe allergy HOT MESS going on. I slept all day yesterday and took a four hour nap today. Hopefully by tomorrow I will be at least 85% better. I'd love to say 100% but I know that won't happen. Today was a little rough. Blech!!

However, I haven't eaten out. WELL technically I was out--and eating but not a meal. Just munched on an appetizer while the boys got their lunch. I ate soup before we went out.

I thought I had my treadmill sold--then the guy never showed up. He never called. SO I called him and he said he'd be right over---well 8pm rolls around (without a call) and someone is obnoxiously ringing my door bell. I was asleep and Shane was gone. IF he still wants it he will have to do it on my time. Originally he was supposed to be here at 8am, then at 1pm. Very very rude. I don't appreciate it at all. *On a side note: I don't know if I really want to sell it. So maybe it's a sign. I don't know. BUT I don't use it and slightly feel like I am hoarding it. So, I decided I'd rather have the cash than waste space in my bedroom. (we have our room then we both have separate rooms...lol)


WELP. Enough for now.

No eating out.

My new form of control. Yep. No more EATING out until my birthday. I can do this!!

Being honest and Laughing hard.

One E, the kids, and I took a trip to Charleston yesterday. The trip was wonderful. Not really worth the drama. Ugh some people make me crazy!!!



I seem so busy. OR at least feel that way. I don't feel like I have been home in weeks but to sleep. Then today I have a day off and the only productive thing I do is grocery shopping. Haha. We were two dollars over our budget but we got some stuff we don't buy weekly (a few shirts and what not) so we did pretty good. Got steaks and Shane's new weekly salmon.

Hmm... i don't know. Guess I will bundle up and finish my book. The Last Song. VERY much like The Notebook but pretty good.

Early to bed.

Hmmm I plan to be in bed in about 10 minutes. So I better make this quick.... I really don't have anything to say except!!!! I had a pretty amazing day! I am so glad that I have such a great job--even in the midst of the kids being sick today we had a fantastic time :)

Tomorrow I hope to get some sweet tea as the stuff I make at home sucks....




I think I am going to add to my "better self" actions and cut out the curse words/bad lango. Hmmm I tend to use whore and cunt as every other word and today the 2 year old at work said "fuck you" while walking around (did not pick up from me!!) and to his crayons "come here you fat little punk" *hilarious* but so not appropriate. Although I do watch my language at all times at work --even when I smash my thumb in the car door-- I just feel like if I am making him talk nice...maybe I should too!! I do however, think that I will have to do a ton of thinking about it because I believe words are just words and if I say "son of a f-ing whore" or something of that nature *favorite phrase!!* I not hurting anyone? I mean? Really? HMMMMMMMMMMMM

On the real.

I was serious in all instances.

Desire

Burning desire. Hot fiery passion. Disease with no cure. NEED. Indulging. Jump to conclusion. Wake up and have mind set. Dye. Color. Scissors.

All things I do/have when my mind needs a cut/trim. Something about hair change makes my world go round. I usually think about it for weeks then wake up, like today, and just have to have a change. Although I am not going to do anything rash like I usually do. I will wait a few more days and then maybe have my mind made up on what I want to do. I think I am going to add some dark blue in my bangs and get a good cut. Yes! Cut. Its at that length where it is annoying and rambunctious and I am so over it!


I haven't been keeping my blog updated. Had a rough week or so last week. Was in NC more than I was home. As much as I liked being there for my father...I really missed Shane. We saw each other for no more than 5 hours all week last week. It was really nice to be home with him today and spending parts of SUNDAY and MONDAY with him. I think we were both really frustrated with me being gone. All is well. :) I can't wait until my weekend in two days!


My house missed me too. I have so much crap to clean up. BUT all will have to wait as I have a horrid headache and don't want to do it.

Death on my door step.

I don't even know where to start. I have so much to write about and so many things to say. I think I better save it until I can hit my brains "edit" button.


In short my aunt passed away. My father and grandmothers lives have been his with a tidal wave. I don't know how things will play out but I am hoping they will turn out well. Death happens and usually you just have to move on...but what happens when the person who dies made it so you could live your life?

What a mess!!