New Car

I am absolutely in LOVE! Love my new car a lot. Cried when I realized it was ours. :) Yay! haha even though its nothing special.



I am about to be a mega moody maybe menstrual person. Yes! There I said it. It makes me moody. Cry baby bitchy godzilla haha, and thats putting it nicely. :]


Work today went really well. Fast! And that was good. Soon as I got home I got really really tired and just wanted to sleep but no time for sleep when you have stuffs to do. We are about to go out to lunch with some friends and that should be fun, yay! I haven't had dine in for months. But that doesn't mean we haven't been eating out like pretty much every meal, ack!! I need to cook more.

Someday.

My Proposal

With our greatest hope,
And slightest dream,
Take me with you,
Where ever you go.
Let me be your first smile of your day,
The anger and laughter that makes way,
And the last little whisper at night.
Take me across the universe,
Through thick and thin,
Lets fight the world,
And help it too.
I’d walk the Sahara desert,
To kiss you at the end.
I’d swim the oceans,
And do it again,
To have you in the end.
Buried next to me,
Is where I want you to lie,
In a hundred plus years,
Our love will still have a bind.
Let our dancing souls,
Meet together,
Be my beloved prince charming.



Even though I was denied because I was not only ringless but also a girl..hahaha I wrote this for my bumpy. :] We just had a conversation last night about how he was too into how much he could afford for a ring, when all I want is some cheap 50 dollar personalized ring and that is what is holding him back. Haha come tax time I am hoping to have a "better" ring on my finger that means something more than not single. :) Haha I love my current ring and wouldn't mind just a band to go with it...

Lonesomeness

I have had a streak of VERY different emotions this week. I feel completely different than usual. I don't really know what it is. Something is going on. I mean its so weird. And out of the blue.


Hmm.... I have a burning itch in me. Like crazy wild fire.


Blech.

New. Old. Weak. Strong.

Grr

Being Seven and Being Brutal

Today I learned something; don't not wear makeup around a seven year old who has never seen you without. Why? Well, when being told that your boyfriend beat you up (joking of course) she will say "Oh!! Is that what happen to your face." Yes, this happened to me. Lack of makeup does give me some characteristics I can hardly bare to look at...but I never knew that a seven year old would even care to notice my lack of makeup. I mean, when your face is breaking out so you take a break from makeup...who cares? Right? I'm entitled to going all natural at times. Even though they are rare occasions I've made it a point to be makeup free (and loving it!) for three days. NEVER will I be makeup free when I am aware that a seven year old will be present.

I purchased "knitting looms" on Thursday and I have successfully made three hats and am about to finish a fourth. Then I am going to make a scarf. They are great tools and very EASY to use. I like them so far. I wonder how long this phase of crafting will last.

We went on a walk today. Talk about amazing. We don't get enough time together to do as we please and to have silly non sense conversations. We unfortunately didn't see much wild life but it was full of very cute pups. :)


I've had migraines off and on for a week or so. I really hope this isn't the start of the headaches I had before. I've been taking tylenol like its candy and am still having trouble managing. So, I am trying to deal other ways--but still no luck. Migraines and vomiting. Yummy! Something has to give.


Well, back to my hats and movie. Sunshine Cleaning. TTYL

Stepping UP

*You are boiling eggs!*

Gotta love the first week of major eating change. WHEW! I made it and did pretty well. This next week will be a struggle as well then I will be ok. But nothing is going to stop the desire to eat a cheesy potato burrito from Taco Bell. My lovely chicken salad tastes amazing at the moment. I am starving! Glad I decided to eat instead of just have a smoothie.

We are buying a new car. Now its just a matter of finding the perfect car!! Oh I can't wait!!

Yesterday was a 3:30 day and today was an off day! I am so glad we finally got some "us" time. Talk about amazing!! (hmm must be the word for tonight.)


I am hoping to find my third "child" soon! So, I can give up work on Sundays and enjoy some time at home. This past week I worked 7 days. And our house was a wreck.


PennFoster called today...nanahahsafdas what a scam. However, I think I am going to take some sort of courses for something I can do at home.

Walking On the Edge

I have never really understood the meaning of a "new year" but this year I have really embraced it and am working actively to start off well and will work even harder to see myself meet all my new "goals". As my mother used to tell me "Shoot for the moon, you may just land among the stars but at least it will be beautiful."

Speaking of the mother; she will have been dead (deceased, boxed, what have you.) for 8 years one week from today. My first and foremost goal this year is to embrace this part of the year. I can and will make the best of what was the roughest time of my life. For 7 years I completely shut down from January-May in deep dark depressions. This year I will NOT do this. I can and will stay strong. Go forth and conquer! Although I am very heartbroken. I have so many vague memories of her making me almost mourn for the pictures in my head that are fading.
People die everyday. I am no one special. This was one event in my life that just so happened to happen. There are more ties to my mothers death than just her passing. It was the closing of my first life and an opening of a new and unknown adventure. I am happy to say though after 8 years of going through hell and circling around for another punch of the devil himself I am happy. I have the greatest man in my life. As cliche as it may be to say....He completes me. I don't know how I would make it with out him. I could but it would probably be another 8 years of hell. Okay, so I could probably make it without him...but it wouldn't be my first choice.



So, I have been really working towards what I will write my book about. I have so many things to say that its taken me almost a year to narrow down what exactly I want to write about. I decided on a title to night and am hoping to get a jump start on it tomorrow at nap time.


I have a lot of rubbish going on in my not so numb skull of mine. I sure wish I had an off switch. So long for now, until we meet again.