When all is said and done you know you have found the one when you feel the flutters from within when someone mentions his name or when he walks in the room and no matter what mood you are in, everything gets lighter and your spinning world stops. One time I made a comment to one of my very good friends that being in love isn't all butterflies and fun...and in the next sentence I wish I could have retracted that statement. What made me say that? Am I crazy? (The answer to that is yes.) Maybe I had just had some issues with the boy or something... I never really take time to embrace what I feel. With every fiber of my being he is my world. Often times I get so caught up in work and life that I don't stop to admire the greatest gift I have been given. A permanent pain in my ass and a shattered heart every time he is in pain.
To really be in love one must feel it from everywhere. I run my fingers over my keyboard and wish I were on his computer. To touch where his fingers were a few short minutes ago. Even though he has gone to the place where he will sit for 8 hours to pay the bills, I have a sudden pain until he returns.
For a few weeks now I have really had to take a hard look at life. Dear John helped me a lot. Who knew that one would have to work so hard to stay in love and not lose that fiery passion? I guess you hear people talk about it, but really have to experience it for yourself.
Take a walk. Find cloud nine.
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